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Up. Down. Good. Bad. Big. Little. Black. White. Everyone and everything is "good" AND "bad". But we are brainwashed from birth, to believe that everything must be labeled as one or the other. That's where the hypocrisy comes in. If the "bad" side wears red, it is *Bad,* but if the "good" side wears red, it is *Good.* It happens with religions and races and cultures and political parties and genders. If "male" nurses post about their experiences in nursing on social media, it is funny. If female nurses post about their experiences in nursing on social media, it's disgraceful, and probably a HIPAA violation, if we just try HARDER. *That is why GOD BLESS Scrubhacks Lindsey. I was noticed, as a nurse on social media, blogging. And don't think i wasn't. When I said that Lauralee called our old folks her "babies," the next time we had "online trainings," they said, "THEY ARE NOT BABIES!" I was pushed against, hard. If i said that i loved my patient's West Virginian accent, the next time I did online training, there was "saying where someone is from is a HIPAA violation." THEY targeted me, watched me, like a hawk, because no other nurses were healing through their traumas and CRAZY life experiences, by BLOGGING THEM. I never use my real name, I don't use patient's names, at times I have switched genders, I have worked so many different places, with so many different patients, the truth is that no one could ever pin me down for a HIPAA violation, especially because I am divinely protected against EVIL PEOPLE and their EVIL SCHEMES. I got into nursing to help people. I have learned to CHECK MY MOTIVES. Because I USED to do things for attention, out of immaturity, out of fear (sometimes still do, have you SEEN the trauma i have been through?) I have done or NOT done things out of guilt, shame, embarrassment, etc. I check my motives often. I build up my courage, I am always working on that. I am grateful for my spirit team, my guardian angels, for my intuition, for my ability to continuously let go of things that do not serve me, and to LEAP at new opportunities. I have complete faith in the universe, to guide me and take care of me.

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